Chocolate shake dinner

Tonight's dinner is a chocolate shake (optifast). The rest of the family had takeaway from the local fish and chip shop. (so local I can see it from my bedroom).
I never understood chocolate shakes for weight loose. Surely it can't be good for those that love chocolate heaps. It was pretty good really for a diet thing so it might not be too hard to live one!

Stopping the crazyness

These are now part of my new life! I found myself falling back into my old habits and convincing myself it was ok because a0 I can't loose anymore weight before the wedding and b) soon I won't be able to have them at all so have it now. Well I have put on weight, I was no higher than when I started the blog but I lost the alchohol kilos from my hens night then found the scales creaping up.

So I thought I will start the optifast NOW!

I am not going on the full program just yet, I will wait till closer to the surgery date but I am going to replace some meals with shakes or soups just to keep some control and keep loosing weight. The wedding is only 8 days away and I am 1.9kgs over my prefered weight for it so hopefully I will get closer to it in the coming days.

Last night my family had sausages, veggies, and my favourite Mac & Cheese for dinner, I had an optislim creamy chicken soup. (I have 1 box of optislim as it was all my local chemist had, they don't stock much optifast so I have ordered it online). It wasn't too bad, could have definately been better but by the time I got to the end of the cup I was used to the taste. I was suprised at how filling it was, and it kept me going all night.

I am not ready to give up my coffee just yet! After the wedding I will drop the amount of them down but not yet! I am also having a yogurt for breakfast. I find that I really enjoy them, I never was a yogurt fan in the past. They are only 70 calories a tub so a great start to the day. I do realise that in the weeks coming up to the surgery these will have to go also, but hopefully after all is healed up I can have them as breakfast once again.

As I said, the wedding is in 8 days (insert freak out here) and then a few days after I go back to Melbourne to see the Psychologist... fun, I must remember to not be having a crazy day!

1st appointment down

I saw Dr Ian Michell today and all seems very positive. I have to see a dietitian, psychiatrist and respiratory specialist and have a range of tests, including blood tests, an ECG and chest xray. If required I may also need a sleep study but i don't think I will.

At this stage i may be sleeved by July or August, I would hope sooner but it is hard to get into all of these specialists in a timely manner. He said if I was too loose the average amount of weight I could expect perhaps a 60kg loose, taking me to about 85kgs hopefully. I would be happy with this!

Tomorrow I am going to try to re arrange the appointments again so I don't need to go into Melbourne on 3 separate days for them. And thanks to my friend Tracy for coming with me today and offering all the support she usually does.  

This picture shows my weight loss from December 2011 until Mid March 2012, about 14kgs gone.

 

The journey begins!

I am starting this blog as a diary for myself and those following my weight loss journey.
Tomorrow (17th April 2012) I have my initial appointment with the surgeon Mr Ian Michell to discuss when I can get Gastric Sleeve surgery. I have all the funds worked out (ouch!) and done my research so feel like I just need to book it in now!


Today I weigh 149.2kgs, the biggest I have been is 178kgs after having my second baby, at the beginning of December 2011 a group of friends decided to start a weight loss group on facebook. At this time I weighed in at 158.7kgs and it has been a fantastic support to loose as much as I have with their support. I recently got down as low as 145kgs but this last weekend I had my hens night away and consumed a few (read many) calories and am hoping the extra few kilos this morning is mostly from that and they will drop away quickly.


A little about my self, I am 27 and always been big, suffer from PCOS and arthritis. Due to the arthritis I am limited to the exercise I do. I have 2 small kids and am getting married in 19 days. When I got down to the 145kgs I had to stop loosing weight because my wedding dress is a bit big now! Whoops. But I have taken the don't loose weight a bit far and put some back on :-(. This week (after the hen's weekend now) I am back into things full steam. Going back down to 1200 calories a day and getting on my new treadmill every night.


I am rather nervous about my appointment tomorrow. Not sure why as I am led to believe there is no reason they will say no to the operation but just eager to get it sorted. I feel like I need this surgery as I never feel full or satisfied so end up over eating and because I have so much I have stretched my stomach to massive proportions. The gastric sleeve (or sleeve as I will most likely end up referring to it as) will shrink my stomach to 150-200ml capacity. Weight loss is rapid for most people and seems to be long lasting for those who do the right things. I choose a sleeve after much research because I have a latex allergy and don't like the idea of something being put inside me and left like the band (I know many say it has no latex but I was told that no one can guarantee that and it may have come in contact with latex, not risking it). I had considered the gastric bypass, but the sleeve seems to be an easier surgery (still key hole unlike the bypass) and there is less issues after ward with nutrition absorption.


So wish me luck, hopefully I will get some answers tomorrow and have a surgery date soon.